I can see why most writers are alcoholics.

I love writing, I love watching worlds and characters come to life… but I hate editing.

I’ll write chapters. Then they sit…waiting…for months. It’s so long that I know them off-by-heart, and by the time I go back around to them for their ‘cleaning up’ I can’t do it because I literally cannot take this sledgehammer to the little parts that give my novel life.

It’s like slowly chipping away at pillars, terrified that one wrong move and you’ll watch your own masterpiece crumble to dust before your eyes.

My plan was the edit this whole novel during my winter break from work. To have it semi-readable before I go back, but it’s turned into a mental battle rather than a physical one.

I’m only on chapter 3 and I hate this novel a little bit more the longer I work on it, but I know the longer I work on it, the more likely I am to start liking it again…

I can see why most writers are alcoholics.

5 Comments

  1. I can relate to this so much. I started editing my second draft and hated my novel so much I had to walk away from it. Thx for sharing and making me feel better 🙂

  2. I completely get the ‘mental-battle’ part. It’s really not easy, but time makes it better. I had this little battle with the beginning of my novel, and I left it alone for a long time. When I went back to it I had clarity and could strengthen my prose. At the end I was happy with the result.

    • The mental battle is the worst. 🙁
      I think that’s what my problem is though…that I keep taking long breaks from it that when I do come back I’m just not feeling the story the way that I had been.
      Glad that you were happy with your writing, there’s no better feeling than that!

  3. Don’t be afraid to cut things that feel like they ‘give your novel life’. They say, ‘kill your darlings’ but I don’t really believe that’s the best way of wording it. You’ll find something even better to replace them. If you did it once you can do it again.

    When I started revising I found two things really helped me. One, I wrote a query for my novel and posted it for critique (i.e. ridicule XD) on a critique site. It helped me see what the heart of my story was and what was and wasn’t important to the story. As part of most such sites, I had to exchange critiques with others, and that taught me that less is more and what works and what doesn’t. It’s much easier to see when it isn’t your own. Now, I’ve also been critiquing the works of other novice writers like myself, for basically the same reasons. After that I came back to my revision with totally fresh eyes and wrote my already re-written first chapter a second time.

    Of course, you can take what I say with a grain of salt, since I hate writing first drafts and actually kind of like revising. I’m that weird writer who’s the opposite of everyone else. Good luck on your revision, I hope you find your second wind!

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