I honestly thought I was up to my fifth rejection, turns out I’m not. I’m only at number 3 [not including the publisher who didn’t get back] so really, it’s 4.
I’ve only gotten 3 e-mails back and all three are saying the same thing, to keep trying. None give me anything to work on or to fix up. I have another six agents and publishers lined up that I was thinking of sending to today, but I don’t know if I’m going to send off to them or should I fix up the beginning first. I know it’s a tiny number to start getting paranoid, as most authors get 10-20-30 rejections before they get anywhere.
I don’t know what to do.
I usually don’t take such a long break from writing, but I just haven’t felt the need to write anything in such a long time. To give an idea- I only wrote 700-odd words last month and this month I’m only at 161 words.
It’s really bad. I’m more focused on getting jobs, interviews, going walking and losing weight. I think I’m also putting off sending my book to more publishers, so if I don’t write I don’t have to think about it.
My days usually start with a morning walk- followed by cleaning the house- then job searching, going out to my dad, coming home and wasting time on the computer and doing random tasks, and then going for my night walk.
Being jobless has made me unmotivated and uninspired and my days just kinda blend into one. So I’ll think ‘oh, it’s too late to try and reach my word goal, I’ll start tomorrow’ or ‘the story is a mess, I won’t look at it’.
Today is different. This morning, I opened a manuscript that I’m having problems with and I have been working on it for an hour now. I’m not going to waste my day job hunting, but leave all that till tonight before going to bed. I’m also going to do research in a bit to find more agents and publishers to send my other manuscript to. Not another second of my day is going to be wasted doing nothing.
I’m not going to let being jobless get to me today. Today is about making progress and not rolling into a ball at 1pm and wanting the day to be over.
I’m thinking of printing off my first draft someday this week. But I don’t know if I should.
It’s going to cost €30 – €35 (whether I make the spacing and font smaller to use less pages) and it’s going to be thermally bounded.
Should I? I think it’ll be better to have a hard copy and a red-pen. To not get distracted by the internet and to do it when I’m out and about.
Is it better with a hard copy? or should I do it on the computer?